I'm currently living the true American life. The company I work for is closing the location where I work. They say maybe I can pick up some hours at the other location, but I'm not really sure if it'll be enough hours to make the gas money worth it. We'll see.
I had another Americana moment last night. CPR took me to a movie (finally the goat movie, which was HILARIOUS), and then there was a nice kiss goodnight before I got in the car to go home. I don't think I've ever had a date with a kiss goodnight before.
I now see why the goodnight kiss is popular. Definitely leaves you wanting more, and something to think about for a while... specifically the ride home.
He asked if i wanted to go hiking this weekend, but I've got family in town, and so I had to decline. We have been talking about joining a few friends to go to a local BeerFest, so I asked if he was still interested in that for next weekend. "I went to [state school] so its kinda hard to say no to organized drinking events." I'm not sure if he's going to be with me, or for the beer. Meh, I'm good with it either way.
Well, I should probably spend some time with this family group...
Lemon Meringue Pie Out!
(YUM)
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
I Must Be Psychic!!!
So, remember this post? I'm so glad to have named him CPR, because, in fact, we did have a practices session last night!
HUZZAH!
We were looking through my GRE study book last night, and obviously that is the optimum moment to lean in for gold. Nothing like a first kiss while discussing math. I never thought that would happen. Kinda really gross really.
Actually, i think it was my first kiss with a guy who can grow a beard, who actually had a beard at the time. It was kinda great!
He crashed here last night (i'm housesitting for a friend for the week), which was wonderful for several reasons. The most selfish being that my room here is cold, and he's very warm. Also, its nice to get a nice snuggle in now and again.
It was a bit awkward and nervous, but i think both of us were just pretty nervous, and awkward in general.
He seems to get quite a kick out me being cranky in the morning, but it can be kinda hard to wake up cranky when you open your eyes to someone you really like.
Lemon Smiles
HUZZAH!
We were looking through my GRE study book last night, and obviously that is the optimum moment to lean in for gold. Nothing like a first kiss while discussing math. I never thought that would happen. Kinda really gross really.
Actually, i think it was my first kiss with a guy who can grow a beard, who actually had a beard at the time. It was kinda great!
He crashed here last night (i'm housesitting for a friend for the week), which was wonderful for several reasons. The most selfish being that my room here is cold, and he's very warm. Also, its nice to get a nice snuggle in now and again.
It was a bit awkward and nervous, but i think both of us were just pretty nervous, and awkward in general.
He seems to get quite a kick out me being cranky in the morning, but it can be kinda hard to wake up cranky when you open your eyes to someone you really like.
Lemon Smiles
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Post Date Forum
He called, but since he had gotten out of work so much later than he had originally expected, we didn't go see the movie.
Eventually he arrived to the place i'm house sitting, and instead we went to a local restaurant, and had a beer. and talked. and talked. and talked. he paid for the beer, although, i'll admit, i didn't even reach for the bill.
we came back to the house, opened up another beer each from the fridge (oh, the joys of housesitting) and continued to talk and talk and talk and talk.
I avoided talking about my exes, and other various faux pas, and tried very hard not to sound like a crazy loon, but I think he seems to enjoy crazy loon a bit, so its really all good.
He's offered to take me rock climbing tomorrow, if it isn't raining. but if it is raining, perhaps we'll finally hit that movie. which i do eventually want to see.
no good night kiss, but, we're still pretty darn awkward around each other. It'll happen eventually, i'm sure. Its probably because we were drinking classier beer than what comes out of a can. (oh, white trash beer, you always lead me into trouble: PBR, CLBF)
Tired Lemon Out.
Eventually he arrived to the place i'm house sitting, and instead we went to a local restaurant, and had a beer. and talked. and talked. and talked. he paid for the beer, although, i'll admit, i didn't even reach for the bill.
we came back to the house, opened up another beer each from the fridge (oh, the joys of housesitting) and continued to talk and talk and talk and talk.
I avoided talking about my exes, and other various faux pas, and tried very hard not to sound like a crazy loon, but I think he seems to enjoy crazy loon a bit, so its really all good.
He's offered to take me rock climbing tomorrow, if it isn't raining. but if it is raining, perhaps we'll finally hit that movie. which i do eventually want to see.
no good night kiss, but, we're still pretty darn awkward around each other. It'll happen eventually, i'm sure. Its probably because we were drinking classier beer than what comes out of a can. (oh, white trash beer, you always lead me into trouble: PBR, CLBF)
Tired Lemon Out.
Friday, November 20, 2009
I hear the clock ticking
No, not the biological clock (this time), the real on-the-wall clock. CPR is supposed to call in 8 minutes or so, and we're going to finally figure out where and what time we're gonna go see the goat movie.
I showered (ok, so maybe i had to get in the pool today, and showered at work, but it counts), did my hair, put on some make up, and now i'm just sitting, staring at the phone, wondering if he's gonna call at 8:00 or 8:12 or (OMG) even later than that!!
And now i'm freaking out about how much effort i put into my hair and make up. The kid only sees me at my most unattractive. Ya know, Just rolled out of bed, to drive to work, to put on a swimsuit and oversized lifeguard shirt, hair in a pony tail, no make up, cranky morning self. And, ya, i guess its flattering that he's into me when i look/act my worst, but now that i've put some effort into it, is it going to be super obvious?
Ok, I need to go find something to eat to calm my nerves.
THE JITTERSSSSS I"VE GOT THE JITTERS!!!
Lemon all shook up.
I showered (ok, so maybe i had to get in the pool today, and showered at work, but it counts), did my hair, put on some make up, and now i'm just sitting, staring at the phone, wondering if he's gonna call at 8:00 or 8:12 or (OMG) even later than that!!
And now i'm freaking out about how much effort i put into my hair and make up. The kid only sees me at my most unattractive. Ya know, Just rolled out of bed, to drive to work, to put on a swimsuit and oversized lifeguard shirt, hair in a pony tail, no make up, cranky morning self. And, ya, i guess its flattering that he's into me when i look/act my worst, but now that i've put some effort into it, is it going to be super obvious?
Ok, I need to go find something to eat to calm my nerves.
THE JITTERSSSSS I"VE GOT THE JITTERS!!!
Lemon all shook up.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
We Have Lift Off
So, I don't remember if I had mentioned this earlier, but while having a delightful cup of tea with CPR at his house this past Sunday afternoon, he had passively asked if I had heard of a new movie. I said I had, and it looked very funny. He then changed the subject.
I reflected on it later, and thought it was a particularly awkward moment of the day, but passed it off as just a conversation about movies, music, culture, etc like we have all the time.
Yesterday, while immersed in one disgusting cleaning job (who knew Lifeguarding involved cleaning out air ducts... see, tangents are easy), He brought it up again.
"So, remember when we were talking about that movie the other day?" He asks.
"yeah, it looks really good" I reply.
"yeah, there was a follow up question. Do you wanna go see it?"
"Yeah, that'd be great!"
We both have a busy end to the week, and he's gonna be out of town for the weekend, so we're gonna try for next week. Maybe Monday. Meanwhile, I'm on cloud 9.
I reflected on it later, and thought it was a particularly awkward moment of the day, but passed it off as just a conversation about movies, music, culture, etc like we have all the time.
Yesterday, while immersed in one disgusting cleaning job (who knew Lifeguarding involved cleaning out air ducts... see, tangents are easy), He brought it up again.
"So, remember when we were talking about that movie the other day?" He asks.
"yeah, it looks really good" I reply.
"yeah, there was a follow up question. Do you wanna go see it?"
"Yeah, that'd be great!"
We both have a busy end to the week, and he's gonna be out of town for the weekend, so we're gonna try for next week. Maybe Monday. Meanwhile, I'm on cloud 9.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Sunny Day, Sweeping the Clouds Away
Ok, so I didn't actually see any sunshine, and the team I was cheering for lost, but really, today was a good day.
Why? Oh, CPR made and followed through with plans. True, I had to be the one to drive 45 minutes so we could hang out, and we did so at his parents' house, but it was a good time all around. We watched soccer, drank some tea, and talked a lot.
He recorded the game on the DVR, and we waited for his dad to watch the game first, then took over the basement tv room. I've personally never played soccer (outside of a PE class, and that does NOT count), and although I know most of the general rules and overall concepts of the game, I don't know things like what counts as a foul. He generously explained them, and didn't appear to be bothered by my many questions, but rather seemed to enjoy showing off his plethora of knowledge.
And we're playing the predating games and dancing the complicated tango of crushes.
Our knees touched, then our elbows, but no arm around the shoulder or other obvious move. We hung out in his room, talked while sitting on his bed, but left the door open. He asked if i had seen a specific movie yet, stated that he wanted to see it, but seemed to get distracted before suggesting we go see it.
I'm learning to play the game, and I think poor CPR is going to get most of the brunt of it. If he wants to hang out with me, then HE can suggest plans the first few times. I can be patient and let him pursue after me. As much as I dislike pop-christian-psychology, the idea of him wooing me both allows him to feel masculine, and me a bit more feminine. And, I think that would be good for us.
Until then, I'm rather excited to see him tomorrow morning.
Lemon drops and Rainbows out
Why? Oh, CPR made and followed through with plans. True, I had to be the one to drive 45 minutes so we could hang out, and we did so at his parents' house, but it was a good time all around. We watched soccer, drank some tea, and talked a lot.
He recorded the game on the DVR, and we waited for his dad to watch the game first, then took over the basement tv room. I've personally never played soccer (outside of a PE class, and that does NOT count), and although I know most of the general rules and overall concepts of the game, I don't know things like what counts as a foul. He generously explained them, and didn't appear to be bothered by my many questions, but rather seemed to enjoy showing off his plethora of knowledge.
And we're playing the predating games and dancing the complicated tango of crushes.
Our knees touched, then our elbows, but no arm around the shoulder or other obvious move. We hung out in his room, talked while sitting on his bed, but left the door open. He asked if i had seen a specific movie yet, stated that he wanted to see it, but seemed to get distracted before suggesting we go see it.
I'm learning to play the game, and I think poor CPR is going to get most of the brunt of it. If he wants to hang out with me, then HE can suggest plans the first few times. I can be patient and let him pursue after me. As much as I dislike pop-christian-psychology, the idea of him wooing me both allows him to feel masculine, and me a bit more feminine. And, I think that would be good for us.
Until then, I'm rather excited to see him tomorrow morning.
Lemon drops and Rainbows out
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Call Backs
So CPR and I are trying to make plans... i think. He asked if i wanted to do something (sober) this weekend, so I said sure. We were originally thinking, like going for a hike and having some tea.
Its been monsoon season out here for a while now, and really a hike isn't a dry option at all. I was willing to go, if he wanted to, but i got a text this afternoon saying he didn't want to play in the rain. So i asked if he wanted to wait til tomorrow, or do something else, to which he responded, we could wait til tomorrow or do something else... wait, isn't that what i just said to him?! ya.
I asked if he had any ideas, and he said he wasn't so sure about indoor activities, but he was gonna go to lap swim. Sometimes I wonder if guys think they're communicating, or if they are purposefully being confusing. This communication thing needs to be looked at closer, but some other day.
I told him to enjoy his swim, and let me know if he thinks of something he wants to do. The only reply I got is that he doesn't like the workout I told him about this past week. My favorite lap swim/practice workout. but whatever, not everyone can be as hardcore as i am in the pool.
Oh, also in the middle of this an old... hook up (for lack of better term) texted me and wants me to come play beer pong with him tonight. We'll call him PBR (mostly because I love nicknames that are initials), as it is his favorite beer. We've made out a few times in the past, but he subsequently blows me off after every encounter.
So, right now I'm practicing my skills in playing "the" game.
I'm letting CPR take the lead.
AND I'm refusing to fall back into the same old same old with PBR.
When it rains...
Lemon out.
Its been monsoon season out here for a while now, and really a hike isn't a dry option at all. I was willing to go, if he wanted to, but i got a text this afternoon saying he didn't want to play in the rain. So i asked if he wanted to wait til tomorrow, or do something else, to which he responded, we could wait til tomorrow or do something else... wait, isn't that what i just said to him?! ya.
I asked if he had any ideas, and he said he wasn't so sure about indoor activities, but he was gonna go to lap swim. Sometimes I wonder if guys think they're communicating, or if they are purposefully being confusing. This communication thing needs to be looked at closer, but some other day.
I told him to enjoy his swim, and let me know if he thinks of something he wants to do. The only reply I got is that he doesn't like the workout I told him about this past week. My favorite lap swim/practice workout. but whatever, not everyone can be as hardcore as i am in the pool.
Oh, also in the middle of this an old... hook up (for lack of better term) texted me and wants me to come play beer pong with him tonight. We'll call him PBR (mostly because I love nicknames that are initials), as it is his favorite beer. We've made out a few times in the past, but he subsequently blows me off after every encounter.
So, right now I'm practicing my skills in playing "the" game.
I'm letting CPR take the lead.
AND I'm refusing to fall back into the same old same old with PBR.
When it rains...
Lemon out.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Why Bother?
Halloween was fun. I didn't make out with CPR... in fact beyond Hi-5's, the only physical contact we had was when he put his hand on my shoulder during a group photo. Disappointing? yeah, but there really wasn't a good corner to disappear into, or really an opportunity to try to find one.
He did seem to enjoy our small party (6 people total, i think, its all a bit hazy) and texted that he would enjoy more get to gethers. I haven't heard from him since about 1:30am last night, but will be working with him tomorrow morning.
I've had plenty of time to think things over today. While I was brooding in my disappointment/wondering if its all for the best, I had a nice freak-out to the tune of Should I even bother waiting around for the elusive "good christian boy"?
Where am I even supposed to find these guys? Do they exist as single men in this area? Sure, I know plenty of high quality christian guys in the area... but they're all married.
I knew quite a few of these guys, still single, when I was in college, but never got asked out. I took initiative a few times, and got turned down. I caught wind of a rumor this past year, that I had been the object of desire by many a fellow while in school... but like I said, never got asked out. So what good does that do me? none.
So, as a Christian woman, what am I supposed to do with the religiously ambiguous? Its not like I can start conversations in polite company with "hi, can you please summarize your whole religious experience and belief system so that I can know whether or not its worth getting to know you. Kthanks."
But at some point it is necessary to at least nail down which camp you are in, and to some degree it matters. Plus, it eventually comes up, as I have a degree in Christian Theology.
Really, I know the answer to my current dilemma: don't get involved romantically with CPR, it will only lead to the next poorly defined relationship that can't go anywhere. But this lonely girl hears her biological clock ticking. Not to mention the reminders from family, friends, well wishers and nosey church ladies. And gosh, it would be nice to say "i'm seeing someone." Or at least have someone to hug on a bad day... who doesn't have boobs.
Lemon Out
He did seem to enjoy our small party (6 people total, i think, its all a bit hazy) and texted that he would enjoy more get to gethers. I haven't heard from him since about 1:30am last night, but will be working with him tomorrow morning.
I've had plenty of time to think things over today. While I was brooding in my disappointment/wondering if its all for the best, I had a nice freak-out to the tune of Should I even bother waiting around for the elusive "good christian boy"?
Where am I even supposed to find these guys? Do they exist as single men in this area? Sure, I know plenty of high quality christian guys in the area... but they're all married.
I knew quite a few of these guys, still single, when I was in college, but never got asked out. I took initiative a few times, and got turned down. I caught wind of a rumor this past year, that I had been the object of desire by many a fellow while in school... but like I said, never got asked out. So what good does that do me? none.
So, as a Christian woman, what am I supposed to do with the religiously ambiguous? Its not like I can start conversations in polite company with "hi, can you please summarize your whole religious experience and belief system so that I can know whether or not its worth getting to know you. Kthanks."
But at some point it is necessary to at least nail down which camp you are in, and to some degree it matters. Plus, it eventually comes up, as I have a degree in Christian Theology.
Really, I know the answer to my current dilemma: don't get involved romantically with CPR, it will only lead to the next poorly defined relationship that can't go anywhere. But this lonely girl hears her biological clock ticking. Not to mention the reminders from family, friends, well wishers and nosey church ladies. And gosh, it would be nice to say "i'm seeing someone." Or at least have someone to hug on a bad day... who doesn't have boobs.
Lemon Out
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